Life,... or something like it

This page contains of some pieces of me in written language. They could be my foolishness, happiness, sadness, loneliness, just ME, stripped.

Friday, October 21, 2005

Hubby, about our marriage.

I just finished reading a book "The 60 Minutes Marriage". The writer promised that the book will change your perspective about marriage (to a better one, of course!). Well, I really think that he's right! I'm a rookie on marriage life and I almost have no experience about it.. but I'm willing to learn. I used to think that it will goes on,.. naturally. We don't have to read anything or learn something about marriage life, you'll find it out somehow! that's what people used to say.... well, I am wrong, they're wrong. Just like any other important events that happened in life, marriage brings us a lot of changes... we need to adjust to it, sooner or later. One quote I read and I think it's true : "Marriage may be made in heaven, but the maintenance must be done on earth." I'm not trying to say that we must change ourselves after we got married, but we're not on our own anymore,.. we're not alone. There are two hearts, two body and most of all two minds. We cannot depend on our own knowledge to decide anything in our lives, because when you got married, everything you do affects both of you. This is a whole new world for me to live in, but I'm ready, willing and able if I had to live it with you.

Thursday, October 20, 2005

BE THANKFUL...

Be thankful that you don't already have everything you desire.
If you did, what would there be to look forward to?
Be thankful when you don't know something, for it gives you the opportunity to learn.
Be thankful for the difficult times. During those times you grow.
Be thankful for your limitations, because they give you opportunities for improvement.
Be thankful for your mistakes. They will teach you valuable lessons.
Be thankful when you're tired and weary, because it means you've made a difference.
It's easy to be thankful for the good things.
A life of rich fulfillment comes to those who are also thankful for the setbacks.
Find a way to be thankful for your troubles, and they can become your blessings.

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

A Few Words For My Husband

by Stacy Lynn Allen

How do I possibly put into words how much you mean to me? I know with all of my heart and every passing day that we were meant to be. With every look into your eyes I fall deeper in love with you; you're strong, you're kind and nothing compares to the things that you do. You've sacrificed so much to be the best husband any man could be; and never second guessed placing my happiness well above your needs. It's comforting to know that in a world so big that sometimes gets me down; I have a husband like you to keep me from falling to the ground. I could hold you in my arms forever and say "I love you" one hundred times each day; but I'm afraid it would take three more lifetimes with you for me to portray...Just how much I adore you and how thankful I am to be your wife; and how lucky I have been to have you as such an important part of my life. People search a lifetime and sometimes never find true love; that's how I know that meeting you was a gift from up above. It's important you understand that although these words, you may not always hear; I love you so much and could never imagine my life without you near.

A Husband - By. Donna Chilton Gray

A husband is a special person
He's depended on by all
The burden must be heavy
To be ever strong and tall.
The person that I run to
When I am filled with woe
Is it very tiresome?
He has nowhere to go.
I depend on him for comfort
Security and love
Where does he get his strength?
Surely from above.
A husband is an amazing man
Everyone knows it's true
He loves me back-this I know
For I'm his comfort, too.

Sunday, October 16, 2005

A Commitment To You Alone

by Jennifer S. Serra
Giving you the space, time and room for you to roam
Waiting anxiously for you to come back and return home
Each step that you take, that leads you further away
I pray that you hasten your journey, so you return someday
I hold your heart and soul with mine
It comforts me during this time
It's the lifeline that keeps me strong
I pray you feel it's where they belong
Always remember the love we share
There is nothing like it to compare
Faithful to you I shall remain
From all others I shall refrain

Old pic...

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I was in my room trying to tidy my drawers and I found this old pic of us,..
do you remember the time? We're still in High School! My God it never dawned on me that we've been together for such a long time... but the most thing is : I'm grateful to have you... I really do.

just want to brag them up... ;-)

i'm just a proud mom,..
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Friday, October 14, 2005

Happy Birthday To Me...


"Today is my birthday and I get one every year,.."
Does this sound desperate? well, maybe.
I feel happy today, because God has grant me a wonderful kind of life and one more chance to survive in this whole wide world. Alone,.. but it's OK. I used to think that I really should spend my birthday with the ones I love, to share my happiness with them... but I don't have the chance this year. I am somewhere,.. far away from my hubby and my baby. I used to think that this is unfair, but what can I do? I"M THE ONE WHO CHOSE TO BE LIKE THIS. No one to blame but myself. I'm sad at the same time, torn apart and felt so lonely,.. but I know that anything that doesn't kill me makes me stronger. I must be strong to continue this journey,.. the long journey of my life and my family. I pray to God to stay strong, keep pushing on and keep me insane. I'm gonna get through this. If everyone else can, so why can't I? I really should widen my perspective, nothing so bad that I should cry or die. I have a bunch of happiness for me, my Hubby and My Baby. Life is too short to be wasted and I just don't want to be wasted. So help me God.
"Spinnining... spinning before I can recall, all the unknown chemicals control the cycle. The succesive geberation, from dust to dust. burrying my grandpa and gave birth to my own son..."

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

missing you baby!


I just received latest pictures of my baby far away, my oh my! he's a lot bigger and cuter than ever!! I just want to go and buy me self tickets to home,.. baby, mommy's coming for you!!!!

Thursday, October 06, 2005

A Story to Live By

My brother-in-law opened the bottom drawer of my sister's bureau andlifted out a tissue-wrapped package. "This," he said, "is not a slip.This is lingerie." He discarded the tissue and handed me the slip. Itwas exquisite; silk, handmade and trimmed with a cobweb of lace. Theprice tag with an astronomical figure on it was still attached. "Janbought this the first time we went to New York, at least 8 or 9 yearsago. She never wore it. She was saving it for a special occasion. Well,I guess this is the occasion." He took the slip from me and put it onthe bed with the other clothes we were taking to the mortician. His hands lingered on the soft material for a moment, then he slammed thedrawer shut and turned to me. "Don't ever save anything for a specialoccasion. Every day you're alive is a special occasion."I remembered those words through the funeral and the days thatfollowed when I helped him and my niece attend to all the sad choresthat follow an unexpected death. I thought about them on the planereturning to California from the Midwestern town where my sister'sfamily lives. I thought about all the things that she hadn't seen orheard or done. I thought about the things that she had done withoutrealizing that they were special. I'm still thinking about his words,and they've changed my life.I'm reading more and dusting less. I'm sitting on the deck and admiringthe view without fussing about the weeds in the garden.I'm spending more time with my family and friends and less time incommittee meetings. Whenever possible, life should be a pattern ofexperience to savor, not endure. I'm trying to recognize these momentsnow and cherish them.I'm not "saving" anything; we use our good china and crystal for everyspecial event-such as losing a pound, getting the sink unstopped, thefirst camellia blossom.I wear my good blazer to the market if I feel like it. My theory is ifI look prosperous, I can shell out $28.49 for one small bag ofgroceries without wincing.I'm not saving my good perfume for special parties; clerks in hardwarestores and tellers in banks have noses that function as well as myparty-going friends'."Someday" and "one of these days" are losing their grip on myvocabulary. If it's worth seeing or hearing or doing, I want to see andhear and do it now. I'm not sure what my sister would have done hadshe known that she wouldn't be here for the tomorrow we all take forgranted.It's those little things left undone that would make me angry if I knewthat my hours were limited. Angry because I put off seeing good friendswhom I was going to get in touch with-someday. Angry because I hadn'twritten certain letters that I intended to write-one of these days.Angry and sorry that I didn't tell my husband and daughter often enoughhow much I truly love them.I'm trying very hard not to put off, hold back, or save anything thatwould add laughter and luster to our lives. And every morning when Iopen my eyes, I tell myself that it is special. Every day, everyminute, every breath truly is...a gift from God.
by Ann Wells in the Los Angeles Times

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

Damn, we're good together!!

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I missed our beautiful times together....